On Vaca!

I haven't been blogging last few days because I am at my mom's visiting in good Ol' Alabamie.
It is nice to see old friends and visit with family. I am taking lots of pictures so when I get back home I will be posting. Oh and loads of knitting going on. I finished one of my mom's socks and it fits her just right. I am on the toe of the other one now. I probably wont finish it before I leave but that is what the USPS is for!

Personality Test... for fun

You Are An INTJ

The Scientist You have a head for ideas - and you are good at improving systems. Logical and strategic, you prefer for everything in your life to be organized. You tend to be a bit skeptical. You're both critical of yourself and of others. Independent and stubborn, you tend to only befriend those who are a lot like you. In love, you are always striving to improve your relationship. You have strong ideas of what love should be like. At work, you excel in figuring out difficult tasks. People think of you as "the brain." You would make an excellent scientist, engineer, or programmer. How you see yourself: Reasonable, knowledgeable, and competent When other people don't get you, they see you as: Aloof, controlling, and insensitive

What's Your Personality Type?

Well I don't befriend others that are just like me. I do the opposite actually. I like to surround myself with fun loving happy people. I am critical of myself but I don't critize others. I am not so sure I would make a good scientist, engineer or programmer.. LOL I think those jobs are booooring. Some of these turn out right some don't. hehe

New (to me) Blog

I found this cute blog from the Mystery Stole 3 group. She is really cute and knits beautiful lace. I think she is my new idol..... Check her out..... Knit2-Tink3

Dog Days of Summer

I don't about anyone else but I haven't been knitting much. I finished my tofutsies socks. I also started on a pair of socks for my mom in KP's Palette in the Teal colorway. Other then that I haven't knitted much. I just feel too hot. It has been 90+ outside for the past week. I guess that is why. Haha..... Ravelry is so cool by the way. If you have a yarn you don't know what to do just do a search and see what others have done with it. That is how I decided on the Seduction Socks pattern for my mom. If you have a book and want to see how some of the designs knit up just do a book search. It is really awesome. I even donated some money to them. I am planning on doing that once a month because they are doing an awesome thing here. I hope they get some investors and make lots of money! It is a great idea and I hope that it shapes up the Internet community really. I mean Wekipedia is trying to do a similar thing but it is still tons of information on a lot of different things. It would be nice to be able to have all kinds of different Ravelrys on different topics. It's the analytical mind in me. I love something all done up in one neat package.

Yarn Harlot

Ok I just read Yarn Harlot's last blog and I about laughed myself out of my chair. Last week she left some roving to dry out on the back porch. When she came back for it, she found it missing. She was sure it was the squirrel thief that had visited her a couple of years ago. Today she posted an email and picture that was just too funny.

I sympathize with her greatly. I have to be careful what I put outside because it will be stole or eaten by the wild life (IE big, fat, cat-sized, man-eating squirrels). Last year I wanted to beautify my back porch and the "wild life" decided they thought it was so pretty they just had to have it. Needless to say my flower garden looked pretty sparse towards the end of summer.

This year I put it all in huge planters and they haven't touched them. HA! I see them looking at it though every once in a while. Sneaky, freaky, I mean lovely little (buggers) creatures.

Website I found

I was listening to one of my favorite podcasts this morning called Sticks & String. He was talking about a friend of his who is blogging about living with depression. David also said how he was very surprised by this because she is so creative, bright and a fun person to be around. I know a lot of creative people who suffer from depression. All through history in fact many of the greats, whether it be painter or musician have to deal with this. I read a book once about personality traits and the one that is the most creative is called Melancholic ( I believe that is what it was called. I can't find the book. I guess I have lost it.) this personality trait is the one who is most prone to depression or melancholia. I took the test in the book and I scored even in caloric (likes order, to be in control, analytical) and melancholic (creative, attentive to detail). I also unfortunately have the depression. It started after I had my first baby. You know the baby blues that are suppose to go away after 3 weeks or so? Well, they never went away. I didn't know it at the time that I was still depressed. I was too busy really to notice how I felt inside. What with being a single mom having to work full time and a social life, I just never thought about myself much. Then, one Sunday, we had a guest speaker at church. He talked about depression and I realized 2 years later that I had been depressed all this time. When they had an alter call at the end of the service, I went and was prayed for. I had my eyes closed while they were praying for me and when I opened them it was like a film had lifted off of my eyes. Everything before had looked like it was grayed out somehow. I hadn't noticed this because living in it seldom does one notice what they are used to. Even the brightest yellows were somehow muted in my eyes. When this grey film was lifted I could see again. Everything looked bright. I could see again.

Fast forward 7 years to my 2nd baby.... I got the dreaded baby blues again. This time I breast feed so that helped some but the depression didn't go away. I don't think it helped that I was married to a man that was emotionally bankrupt and had no compassion or gave any thought to anyone but himself. It didn't help my depression that by the time my 2nd son was 2 I was going through a divorce and also finding out that my son was autistic. I guess it also didn't help that I had no job, no car, and no house to live in. Let me just say that if God wasn't there always watching me and that I had praying family and friends, I would not be here typing this blog. My sons would not be alive and breathing and I would not have met my wonderful husband. I got to the point in my depression that one day I almost didn't turn off the car when i pulled into the garage. God used my beautiful babies. They were the only reason I turned off the car. I saw them grown up and living for God in that split second after I thought about not turning the ignition off.

Now I rarely have thoughts of suicide. I rarely even have bouts of sadness but they are there always in the back of my thoughts. Its always sitting there on my right shoulder. Trusting God has done a lot to alleviate the pain. I don't want to take drugs, although I probably should, but I am trying diet and exercise instead.

One thing that has helped me is crafting. Making things with my hands has always helped with the pain. It helps me forget myself as I make things for the people I love. I am now using yarn and 2 pointy sticks. I am knitting away the pain.

Here is a website called Stitchlinks that tells how knitting is therapy. I didn't even know that all the crafting I have done over the years is my therapy but I do now and it endears me to it even more.

Drum Roll Please.....

I finally got invited to Ravelry!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Oh wow this thing is as awesome as everyone has said. You can look up anything knitterly that you want. It will show you peoples blogs. It shows you yarn porn. Anything and everything. I really think it's the new Google of Knitty things. Its the new Knitepedia! It is awesome. I have waited 8 weeks! I tell you it is worth the wait.